4.7

almost 4 weeks at this so far

observations:

i think my stomach is shrinking...not really feeling hungry even when i've had relatively little to eat...i can tell it's time to eat more by the lethargy from low blood sugar than from anything else

when things are going well with other parts of my life, i don't seem to feel unsatisfied with what i'm eating, or with how much i'm eating - but when there is turmoil of some sort, i tend to think "screw it - i want some peanut butter" - so this is an area where i need to find better coping mechanisms

i haven't noticed much difference in how i percieve myself or in how my clothes fit so far - i did wear an xl tee shirt the other day for the first time in a long time (i usually wear xxl) without feeling like i had huge rolls of fat on display around the middle - but i am looking forward to being able to wear more than untucked bowling shirts

when i was younger, i had gotten up to 220 pounds (slightly less than i weigh this morning) and over the course of two years, got down to 170...it made a HUGE difference in the way i perceived myself - for the first time in my life really, i felt confident and powerful

this time around, i'm hoping only to feel fit...it seems like i've been unwell for so long...just waiting for a heart attack or something...an endless string of concerns and complaints

i need to make time for regular exercise...i'm focused so much on the diet side of this, but the walking makes a big difference - i need to remember that and do it

if there's anything with the diet that i really need to work on, it's more balance (what weight watchers calls "daily requirements") and more variety...this will probably come more easily as time goes on

feeling generally hopeful and positive

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usual breakfast this morning, except that i also ate the last couple of bites of a toaster strudel that my daughter didn't finish...probably a couple points just for that!

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carrots for lunch...then a nice salad with some cheese and leftover new york strip sliced over it for dinner - maybe 7 points total

a couple bully porters